We had our second ultrasound a few days ago. We lost the baby.
There were no warning signs. Everything was looking good, no cramps or bleeding or anything. But when the doctor did the ultrasound, the baby was much too small, and she couldn't find a heartbeat. She got another doctor to look, also. It was a miscarriage.
Serene got a D&C Saturday while I distracted her with tall tales about dinosaurs and Japanese gardens.
I'm surprised at how hard it hit us both. It's been a hard few days, with a lot of sudden bouts of tears. The littlest things set us off. Like when we were on our way to get the procedure done, we walked past a birthing class and I suddenly couldn't see anymore. I hadn't realized how much we had already bonded with our little baby.
It's been hard to tell everybody. Every phone call brings everything right to the surface again. But it's also been very therapeutic talking to people about it. A lot of people have gone through similar experiences, and have good and encouraging perspectives on it.
Still hurts though.
There were no warning signs. Everything was looking good, no cramps or bleeding or anything. But when the doctor did the ultrasound, the baby was much too small, and she couldn't find a heartbeat. She got another doctor to look, also. It was a miscarriage.
Serene got a D&C Saturday while I distracted her with tall tales about dinosaurs and Japanese gardens.
I'm surprised at how hard it hit us both. It's been a hard few days, with a lot of sudden bouts of tears. The littlest things set us off. Like when we were on our way to get the procedure done, we walked past a birthing class and I suddenly couldn't see anymore. I hadn't realized how much we had already bonded with our little baby.
It's been hard to tell everybody. Every phone call brings everything right to the surface again. But it's also been very therapeutic talking to people about it. A lot of people have gone through similar experiences, and have good and encouraging perspectives on it.
Still hurts though.
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